Random Thoughts From a Mommy

Umm...week 18 already? The baby is now the length of a sweet potato (5.5 inches). I'm wondering when I'm going to feel the baby move. I think I feel something at times, but it's more like gas than anything else. I'm not eating a lot these days, I hope the baby is growing! (I assume baby must be taking everything I have, because I don't think I've not been sick - i.e. all day sickness, UTI, cold, etc - since I've been pregnant. Leaving me fight for myself) So, I FINALLY told my boss at work today that I'm pregnant. I don't know what I expected, but I didn't expect it to be easy. Of course I should know that she has experience with hearing news like that all the time. I guess I just thought she'd say something like, "ok, well, you're not fit for this role anymore, so what's the plan now?" or something like that. Those who have worked with me before know that I have always been very good at what I do. I don't say thi...

After coming back from LA, we just completely crashed for about 12 hours. Even then, it didn't seem like 12 hours was enough sleep. Good news was that my ears were fine - being congested, I really was surprised that I came out ok on the other end. I think it was a mixture of tapping, lots of vicks vapor rub, sleeping, and lots of praying. At the end, I'm just grateful my eardrums didn't pop. We went from 30 degrees in Pasadena to -10 in Edmonton. Today, it clocked at -23 with windchill of -33. I am severely depressed - we should've stayed and never came back! On to happier news though - we have decided we will find out the sex of the baby next week at our ultrasound! There was a lot of debate back and forth about keeping it a surprise. But as my cousin Andrea puts it (God bless her), "it's a surprise whether it's at 20 weeks or at 40 weeks." And it's true. I am SO EXCITED to be finding out. I'm having a bit of a mental breakdown about w...

You know what's the worst? When you're travelling and you're doing logistics for a 5-day event and you get sick AND you're pregnant. Travelling went well - I was feeling pretty great. But after eating Carl's Jr for the third day in a row, getting about 6 hours of sleep a night (and not good sleep), I knew this would happen. I got so tired at one point I actually went under the table to take a 30-minute nap during the seminar. Between planning meals (do you know how hard it is to think about what you want to eat right after breakfast or lunch?), keeping time (speakers NEVER end on time), and running music (should we do slow music with lyrics? or slow music without? Should we make it loud? Or should it be softer?), I was giving it my all. I've been way too busy to worry about the baby...until now. I'm coughing up my lungs, and I'm wondering if the baby is still okay. Good news is that it's only 17 more days until the ultrasound. Bad news is that it...

So yesterday (November 1), I woke up and knew it was an important day. The only thing I could think of was our doctor's appointment. I even found my daytimer to make sure I didn't scribble something last minute on there. Nope, none, nada. Last night we went to a friend's house for dinner. Then at 7:30, I checked my phone and I missed a call. Then I remembered - I was supposed to have an appointment to meet with my life insurance company for more paramedical questions. I COMPLETELY forgot while she was standing in front of my house. Imagine my horror and embarrassement. I haven't called her back yet, but I'm going to try to make it up to her. And so it begins...pregnant brain. On top of that, I also seemed to have developed headaches. Headaches aren't normal for me, so to have them for a couple days in a row was painful to say the least. I have come to realize that I am a big cry baby, I just never noticed because I hardly got sick before I was pregnant. ...

I was feeling better last week, I really was. In fact, I had a 5-day streak of not getting sick. I was starting to eat normal meals, I was beginning to get some energy back, I was getting hopeful! Then BAM! Just like that, I have never been so violently ill in my life. At first I thought maybe I went a little too overambitious on the food I was eating, but no - even when I'm not eating, I manage to throw up something ! It's been a long week, and I feel like so much has happened, but umm...the pregnant brain can only remember so much. First, one of my co-workers so kindly loaned me her bella band! Yay! I can wear my normal pants and feel somewhat comfortable :) God bless her - what a lifesaver. I haven't worked up the nerve to tell my boss about the baby yet. Do I have to? Oh yes, I do. I keep waiting and waiting for things to line up before I do, but alas, I think the Universe is waiting for me to make a decision and take action before giving me a break. So yes, it...