Random Thoughts From a Mommy

I knew when we were moving in with my mom that there would be challenges. But I didn't anticipate it to be THIS difficult. It could be a mixture of me forgetting what my mom is truly like and hormones combined. It's gotten bad enough that even Bryan is losing his patience. (And if you know Bryan, you know it takes a lot to make him mad) Even though it's been 25 years since my mom last had a baby, and even though when asked, she doesn't actually remember what it was like to raise a baby (it's maybe because she had full time help with a nanny), her advice never cease. She wonders why the baby is crying all the time (mom: why is she crying so much? us: because babies cry mom, that's what they do. mom: I don't think that's normal. You guys are doing something wrong.). She doesn't seem concerned that the baby is under weight, but seems to be concerned that she's naked for 10 seconds (mom: why does she have to be naked? us: because we're changing...

They warn you about your hormones going out of wack and how you will feel all kinds of emotions. They weren't kidding. One day I would be in the best state in the world to conquer motherhood, the next day I would be weeping about anything from Mackenzie crying to not getting enough attention from Bryan. To say that it's a bit of a roller coaster ride would be an understatement. And it's only day 10. Being a mom was not at all what I expected. I thought I would feel different somehow. I don't know exactly how I thought I would feel, maybe a bit more maternal? A bit more loving? I have no idea. All I know is that when Mother's Day rolled around, I hardly felt like it was a day for me at all! Having said that, I have thoroughly enjoyed having Mackenzie in our lives. In fact, I've enjoyed her so much that I hardly remembered what it felt like to be pregnant. All those thoughts about how I would miss being preggo are gone. And labor? I can tell you I remember it ...

I'm sure from me not posting this week, you've guessed what happened! It all started last Friday (can't believe it's been a week already) when we were visiting Amanda and Dan for one last dinner before they leave for Edmonton on Saturday afternoon. We've kinda given up that the baby would come before they leave. But then at 8 pm, it all changed. The first contraction started. I wasn't sure what it was at first. But when it felt the same 30 minutes later, I knew it had started. So when we left dinner, I said, "I'm not going to say goodbye. The baby will probably come tomorrow before you guys leave. The contractions are now 8 minutes apart". With that, we drove home. With a bit of excitement and nervousness, we went to bed around midnight hoping I could catch some rest before baby comes. Well an hour later, the contractions were about 7 minutes apart and hurt enough that I couldn't sleep. My sister came home around 2 and I hung out with h...