Random Thoughts From a Mommy

So, we had our first doctor's appointment yesterday. The office wasn't as busy as I thought it would be. Some pretty cute kids there (they obviously have pediatricians working as well). The first thing they did when they called my name was weighed me. I gained 5 lbs between the morning and weigh in time. Could possibly be the clothes, or the 5 lbs of food I didn't consume in the 5 hours in between. The nurse/aide was so nice. I loved her immediately. I think she loved us too. She told me that I got some test done, but not all of them. She gave me one more requisition - testing for chlamydia or something. Isn't it too late for that? She gave us a run down of the routine - what to expect for our next appointments (they will only be 5 minutes each! So short!). She also reassured us that our doctor is great. I already knew that though, I read up about him. I changed so they can do their routine exam. The doctor came in, looked pleasant enough. A little older tha...

After weeks of wondering if it was better to FEEL sick or to actually BE sick - well, yesterday, I finally hurled down the white throne. I can tell you - I do not prefer EITHER. Afterwards, I had a new sense of hunger, but I was too tired to bother getting out of bed and finding something that will suit my stomach last night. So I actually went to bed at 10. 10 might seem normal to some of you, but 9 weeks ago, I was going to bed at 1 or 2 in the morning. I would be lucky now if I can stay past midnight... Countdown to the doctor's has begun - I haven't even made a list of question yet. Wish me luck - I hope it goes well. I have some gross questions, some weird questions, and probably some really dumb ones. Since this whole midwife thing didn't work out, I'm just hoping that God sent me this doctor for a reason. I had Mexican food for lunch. It went down well. Of course, that's today. Last week Chinese did me well, this week - not so much. Tonight I'...

Week 9 starts today. This past few days have been worse than ever. I need a nap constantly, and my morning sickness has peaked (or I hope this is as bad as it gets). I am not puking, but the thought of eating is enough to send me running under covers and just lay there until I fall asleep. I haven't had a proper meal for a few days now - can my baby shrivel up if I don't eat properly? I skipped my vitamin for one day too. As I'm writing, I'm trying to gulp down some yogurt. I bought some this morning not knowing that this is natural yogurt - meaning no sugar. It's not good. Not good at all. I also had a bag of chips yesterday AND today. So nutritious. I can barely make my day through work, I'm not entirely sure how I thought I was going to be able to work from home raising a brand new baby. And if we have twins? I can't even think about it. 2.5 more weeks til my mom and my sister are in town. I'm getting very antsy waiting for their arrival. I...

So, we've been without heat because our furance broke. When it was summer, it didn't really matter. But fall came upon us a lot quicker than we anticipated. So for the last 2 weeks, we've been living in the cold. I've been completely miserable. The furnace guy gave us hope - I was dying to have heat in our house again. I have been extra cold since I've been pregnant and I think my pregnancy symptoms have gotten worse because of the cold. The moment I heard the furnance going, I was so relieved. It didn't stop for an hour and a half - that's how long it took to get our house back to room temperature. And did you know that just 6 degrees (celsius) can make all the difference in the world? I had a clearer head, I was happier, and I wasn't as neauseous. So yay furnace guy! Thank you for making me and my baby happy again! On another note, the lack of symptoms is now driving me crazy. With them I'm miserable, without them I'm panicking. Beep ...

Even though I am sure I was the first to submit that application after this midwife told me they had openings, I didn't make the cut. I'm on the waiting list. Surprisingly, I'm not too upset about it. I'm feeling like maybe having a doctor is okay too. I might hire a doula though, but we shall see. I feel really useless these days. If I'm not sleeping, I'm staring at the computer thinking about how tired I am. And although I'm really grateful for morning sickness (because it reminds me I'm actually pregnant), I'm quite tired of the unpredictability of what different foods will make me want to hurl everyday. Like today, the thought of having subway with my friends for lunch sounds fantastic. And I thought maybe I would order a foot long so I can have one for a snack - but thinking about that makes me want to puke. How random is that? I am getting really excited about the baby. I'm thinking about shopping for maternity clothes, what we'll...

Ok, so here we are at week 8. With my husband gone for the weekend, I actually spent the majority of my two days on the couch watching TV. I even popped in the Dawson's Creek series finale and watched and hour and a half filled with drama. Oh yeah, I balled my eyes out. Especially when Jack said to Jen, "You belong to me. Don't you see? You are my soulmate." Or when Gram kissed Jen on the forehead and said, "I will see you soon child, soon." I'm supposed to stick to comedy for the next 7 months, but screw that! There are times I just love crying! (That's what I say now, just wait another few weeks...) On Saturday, I went out with my best friend and her sister. I picked them up after dinner and asked them what they'd like to do. They were meh about dessert and coffee. So I suggested drinks and they were all over it. Great, now I have to pretend...again...for 2 weekends in a row! So we went to Cactus Club, we all ordered our drinks. I excus...

It's only been 3 weeks since we found out I was pregnant. I swear it's been the longest 3 weeks of my life! Week 7 so far has been mixed with up and downs. There were minutes (literally just minutes) where I would feel terrific. More often than not, I'm just exhausted ready to crawl into bed. My sense of smell has definitely heightened. The other day my husband fried something up with butter, and I told him to take it far far away from me unless he wanted me to vomit on his plate. And I love butter! :( I was so miserable at one point this week I told my husband that I would gladly welcome twins so I could get this over with! Yesterday I had the most to eat ever in the last 3 weeks. I started off feeling super nauseous, and then I had the following for lunch: corn nuts (YUM!), crunchy coated peanuts, and popcorn. Then for dinner I went out with a friend for Pho. I was so full by the end I couldn't sleep! And I was so dehydrated, but I couldn't take another sip ...

It was the worst weekend ever. Friday night was our anniversary - we've been married 4 years! And of course, of all the weekends, this was the weekend we had to clean our rental property to prepare for new tenants. It was one of the grossest thing I've EVER done. It was as if the condo hasn't been cleaned since the building was constructed. It was disgusting. Thank God I have amazing friends who came over and helped us with some pretty horrendous stuff. They are amazing, I know. I owe them my life. I think it was God's way of preparing me to clean and be overwhelmed. Not only that, God is preparing me for sleep deprivation. Needless to say, with the lack of sleep, lack of eating, oh, and lack of sleep - I swear my symptoms got worse this weekend. My boobs feel like they're about a thousand pounds and I want to rip them off because they hurt so much. And my morning sickness has begun. I drove to Calgary with my best friend (which by the way, was a very plea...

Got a call from the Primary Care Network yesterday. I'm booked in for my first appointment with the OB/Gyn on September 27 at 1 pm! I even did research on this doctor and mostly they were very good reviews. So if I don't end up with a midwife afterall, I'm totally ok as long as I have a good doctor. Oh, I also had the pleasure of having hemmorrhoids the other day - yeah, I know, it's a lot of information, but I just want you to know that when you have no idea what to expect, you can't help but freak out when there's blood coming out from that end. That was my scare from a few days ago - thank God I have a friend who does EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique). We tapped about my hemmorrhoids, along with my other fears, and they disappeared within an hour. I was a totally different person after my session with her. Sure, I still have moments where I think I might sneeze the baby out, but mostly, I'm pretty content and getting more excited than scared. Also j...