Random Thoughts From a Mommy

When Mack was first born, I told Bryan that I couldn't possibly think of having any more kids. I mean, how you can you love anyone more than this perfect baby? What if I don't love the next one as much? I feel like Mack took up all the cuteness there was plus all the love we could give! Then we travelled to Utah to visit one of our best friends last week who has 5 kids. I thought having 5 kids would be super chaotic. And it is. There's never a moment of quietness, and you're just not going to please every child. But I can tell you, I think my heart expanded 10 times just being with those kids this past week. I understand now how you can have more than 1. I'm not saying we'll have 5. But I'm definitely considering more than 2. Mack quite enjoys the attention from the kids. They all wanted to hold her, to play with her, and to just look at her. After coming home the other day, Mack immediately got bored with all of her toys. She wanted attention. Which

I don't think I'll ever get over how fast they grow. Today, I'm officially a stepmom to 2 grown up adults. My youngest stepdaughter just turned 18 today. Wow. There's a little evil part of me that's really relieved that child support is over as of today. After 9 years of sucking up a good part of our pay cheques, it's finally over. I'm a terrible person, I know. Don't get me wrong though. They deserved every penny. I wouldn't have it any other way but to pay child support. Those kids are great kids. And their mom is a great mom. So I know that money went to good use. She wasn't one of those women that took the money and spent it on herself. Still...I've been looking forward to this day for a long time. Of course, there's a big part of me that is sad that they're now grown up. They're supposed to be able to conquer the world and know everything about everything. (Remember when you were 18?!) They talked about ordering a b