Freaking Out

Is this normal?

I'm thinking about all the worst possible things that could happen right now. I'm tearing up in the middle of working during the day because I can't fathom anything happening to this tiny little embryo that hasn't even developed much yet.

Logically, I know my chances are very good that things are going to go well.

Emotionally, my hormones are going wild telling me that things are going to go wrong any second.

I'm afraid if I think about it anymore, those thoughts will come true.

Seriously, is this normal?

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